Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Carpe Diem!

Well, I don't even know where to start with this one...

The last couple of days I have been doing a lot of thinking. I think it stems from reading too much. I've been going through books like crazy!

Anyway, I must quit stalling. As a preface, I would just like to say that I LOVE my life. I have had opportunities to do many things in my 25 years that some have not done in a lifetime. I have lived abroad in Italy, been skydiving and graduated college, among many other wonderful experiences. Not to sound cocky, but I do think I am better off than some of my friends. I have an awesome family, a decent full-time job where I was recently promoted, I work a second job part-time on the weekends for extra cash, I live in a nice area, I drive a nice car, and I have two sweet little pups to come home to every night. Then why, you ask, am I writing this?

Well, I guess I feel like I have more life to live. Although everything is great and wonderful, I feel like I am missing something. And no, not love like you guys might infer per my semi-recent break up. It is quite the opposite I suppose. I think now is the time to live in the moment, "seize the day", if you will. Carpe Diem!

As many of you know, I lived in Italy in the summer of 2007 and absolutely loved it. I told myself, and many of you, that as soon as I graduated from college I would move back for at least a year or two. Well, after reading my last book, I figured why not? I am young, single, independent, and love new adventures. Sure, all the logistics would have to be planned out ahead of time- a place to live, a job, and money to get there- but why couldn't I just pick myself and move away for a while? Move to Italy? Well who knows... but what I am saying is that I am ready for something new, something exciting, and something not so mediocre. I mean, I am 25 years old and I already feel like an old lady with the same old routine going to a job that I am indifferent about. Not that routine is bad, but I think you get the gist. I don't think it helps that the majority of my friends are getting married and are having kids and that I am no where near that point in my life.

The whole married and having kids thing is foreign to my best friend, Ashley, who lives in NYC. She can't believe how many weddings I have been to just these past couple of months. The culture sure is a lot more different down here than it is in New York. I was talking to her tonight, in fact, explaining to her how I was feeling about life and such and that I am ready for something new and refreshing. She instantly tried to convince me to move to the city with her. Although she has several good points- that I already have friends and family up there, that I could live with her as long as I needed, and that she would find me a job- I'm not sure if New York would be a place for me. But then again, could I really leave Atlanta, the home I've known for so long?

Okay, so that was probably a lot for you guys to take in. Am I really just going to pick up and move somewhere? Who knows. Any insight would definitely be appreciated. I wish I could just win the lottery and travel the world. I guess that means I would have to start playing, eh?

P.S. The picture is from Positano, Italy... my favorite place in the world! (so far!)


  1. I love your blog Lauren. You are so honest and approachable. Hope you're having a good week.

  2. you know. i feel like im going through the same thing. quarter life crisis? Is it something about the age of 25? Or is is something about everything changing so rapidly? I mean I've been out of college two years and it feels like it's flown by!

    But I say DO IT! Go for it. You're not a failure if you move up to NYC and hate it, or if you fly to Italy and despise it. Just do it! You can always come home. Your friends and family will be there to support you.

    This is the only life you have. You know I think sometimes we feel like we're waiting on something. Waiting to drive, to graduate, to pay off bills, to get married.... and what I've realized lately is that I can't wait. We can't wait. Today is all we have. So I say do it!

    If you're trying to decide on what to do...well I'd pray about it. Now I'm not the best advice giver in the world. Or most devout. But I know if you love God he will show you the path you should take. You've always struck me as a strong person. So I have faith that you can take on any path.

    In the meantime when you're figuring things out...just know there are sooo many people out there feeling the same! Battling with what to do with their lives. I know I'm still trying to figure out what it means to Carpe Diem..Can't we all just win the lottery and travel? ha